Hey Angela, sorry to hear about your dad and it sounds like you have adjusted pretty decent to him being gone even though it still hurts. A lot of people like to hear the story behind the car and so you may want to consider putting the story into a photo album of pics of your dad building the car if they exist. This could be difficult for you, but it may also help you in honoring what your dad did. Like the others have already said, if you need help, there are plenty of people who are willing, including in DesMoines.